The holidays are over. It’s about time to get back to the normal swing of things. Many people are completely re-energized and ready to get to work. The break has left them feeling free and new and full of life. Me? I’m completely opposite. I lost my running mojo. I’ve been tired. I just want to take a nap. Why though? What is up with me??!!?!
If you’re like me, you’re frustrated. I’ve had all of this time off for the holidays- shouldn’t I have found time daily to get in a workout or a long run? I didn’t want to. I wanted to sit with a glass of wine at night and then sleep in in the morning. Toward the end of the break, I would go out for little short runs when I’d have a chance and I enjoyed them thoroughly. I have three huge marathons scheduled that are coming up. Am I ready? Hell no. These will be no PRs. I couldn’t be any LESS ready; however, I’m not really bothered by that right now. I’ve been doing some serious thinking and soul-searching about my running and my purpose.
I’ve learned one thing over the past few months. The best thing about signing up for marathons and halfs is that you don’t HAVE to race to win it. Really, you probably WON’T win it no matter how hard you try. You can, actually, just go out there and enjoy it. Enjoy the course, the people, the after-party. I used to not be able to go out for a run without going for a PR. That is PRESSURE, man. I have a lot of friends who are still in that boat. It can be a super positive thing in that every time you run, you’re looking to be faster, better, stronger than the last time; HOWEVER, doesn’t it take maturity to go out and say that you’ll just enjoy the run and the race? To me, I feel like it does.
I saw this quote the other day and it really spoke to me. Why am I concerned about the things I am? I have always obsessed about what other people would think about me throughout a race. I cared about whether people judged me for walking. I cared about whether people judged my outfit. I would look through results and look at other people’s successes and feel bad about myself that I couldn’t get there. I cared about whether people would go through the results and say, “Wow, I wonder what happened to Melanie- she was SO slow today.” I’ve realized that no one cares that much about my running journey– only I care that much. And really, if other people DO happen to care that much, then the problem is THEIRS. Not mine. NOT MINE. It is a freeing reality to know that you can go and race and exercise and do it all for yourself and not worry about time or other people.
I don’t know about you, but I’m not a professional runner. I’m a teacher. I’m a dance coach. I’m a mother of two. I’m a wife. I wear many hats. Running is just a hobby that I enjoy. Obsessing over the PR made me almost hate running. I felt like I wasn’t getting any better and I was missing out on all of these things that I wanted to do because I was constantly trying to get my long run in. While that can be good sometimes, it is also good to be able to say, “you know what? I’m just going to go out for the hell of it!” I’m going to enjoy it. I’m going to get the training in that I can and enjoy it. ENJOY IT.
So if you feel burnt out or you just really can’t make yourself seem to care about some goals you’ve set for yourself, just take a step back. Re-examine your purpose. Are you letting it takeover your life? Are you obsessing about the small things? If you are, let it go. I’m ready to take on 2016 with a new outlook and a happier self.
Let me know how you’ve gotten out of your funk (I can’t believe that anyone HASN’T gotten into one). Share your stories with me! Happy 2016 and happy racing!